Mary J Blige Getting Through Her Difficult Divorce Through God and Prayer

Everybody goes through trying times, and R & B artist Mary J. Blige has shared how she is getting through a difficult divorce from her husband of 12 years.

What's getting her through this ordeal is God and prayer. The Christian singer has been open about her battles with low self-esteem, alcoholism and drug addiction. Blige grew up in a Pentecostal environment, but when she became more successful she started turning to drugs and other vices. When she became a Christian, that's when she kicked the bad habits. When people would reply that she looked different, she would always answer, "My beauty regimen is Christ."

"I was ready to just check out. It was a moment - I can't get into it - but I saw my life going and I was grabbing for it," she said. "That's when I realized that I don't want to die. And I switched, and I started praying and crying, and my life shifted right there." Blige has said that God's power has been more helpful to get her away from addictions more than going to rehab ever could.

Now that queen of soul hip-hop Mary J. Blige is going through a bitter divorce with her manager husband Kendu Isaacs, she is again relying on God and prayers to get her through.

"What is getting me through is God, prayer, my family, people who love me, my fans," Blige said. "Me being healthy and loving myself the way I do and taking care of myself. ... It's put me in a place where I can see things clearer.

Kendu Isaacs and Mary J Blige have been married since 2003, but have no children together. Isaacs is reportedly asking for more than $100,000 in spousal support from the 9-time Grammy award winning singer.

Blige has opened up about the divorce recently, and admitted that respect played a big factor in the decision to divorce.

"The breaking point was when I kept asking over and over and over again for respect and to be respected. And it just seemed like I was beating a dead horse and it seemed like I was talking to a wall," Blige said. "I just wasn't getting it back. So if I can't get respect in the relationship, then I have to move on and save myself. That was the point where I was like, 'I'm done. I just can't do it anymore.'"

It seems also the Blige's ordeal is influencing her music. Her new album is entitled "Strength of A Woman," and in an interview she has stated that it's not just about surviving but also thriving in life, she relates how to be strong, you must have felt uplifted after it, not damaged, and that you realize even after being hurt that you learned something.